Podcast:Recovering Out Loud Published On: Tue Sep 29 2026 Description: Sobriety didn't switch off my alcoholic thinking. 5 things I still do in addiction recovery — and how I catch them.Putting down the drink and the drug was the start, not the finish. My problem was never just drugs and alcohol — it's me, my perception, and the way I try to escape pain. Left unchecked, that alcoholic thinking runs quietly in the background and turns into resentment, fear, anxiety and anger. And eventually, a drink.In this solo episode of Recovering Out Loud, I walk through five things I still catch myself doing almost two years into my second run at sobriety:More is better — swapping the bottle for something else. Coffee, sugar, vapes, the gym, scrolling, work. Cross addiction is real, and so is channelling an obsessive brain into something that helps.Right now or never — instant gratification, the text you shouldn't send, and why I make things worse every time I try to force an outcome.Resentment on repeat — rehearsing arguments in the shower, keeping score, and learning to just let them.Running the show — control, people pleasing, and the difference between being kind and being nice.The mask — image management, the highlight reel, and the gap between recovering publicly and recovering honestly.Plus: the best part of recovery (a 30-day text from a guy I'm working with), an update on my school situation and the "push or pivot" moment that came out of it, and three questions you can ask yourself about each of these.This is lived experience and peer perspective — not clinical advice. If any of these land for you, tell me which one in the comments.