I Wrote About My Mother’s Suicide and Found My Own Voice Instead
I Wrote About My Mother’s Suicide and Found My Own Voice Instead  
Podcast: Grief and Rebirth: Finding the Joy in Life
Published On: Wed May 13 2026
Description: What happens when a professional ghostwriter, who has spent twenty years giving voice to others, is forced to confront her own story following her mother’s suicide? In this deeply moving episode, Emmy Award-winning producer and bestselling author Samantha Rose joins the show to discuss her award-winning memoir, Giving Up the Ghost. Samantha shares the tender, complicated journey of navigating her mother’s unexpected death by suicide—a tragedy that shattered her world and challenged her relationship with the truth. From the "constellation of questions" left in the wake of loss to the liberating power of saying the "scary thing" out loud, Sam explores how she moved from betrayal and anger into a space of compassion and rebirth. The conversation also delves into the fascinating world of automatic writing and dream visitation, revealing how Sam reclaimed her own voice after decades in the shadows.IN THIS EPISODE, YOU’LL HEAR ABOUT THINGS LIKE:The shocking contrast between Samantha’s mother’s vibrant public persona and the hidden mental health struggles that led to her death.Why “saying the scary thing out loud” is a mechanical necessity for breaking generational secrets and beginning true healing.The professional and personal transition from being a “ghost” for others to becoming the primary narrator of her own life.The concept of “clean grief” vs. “muddy grief” and how to push past the “how and why” to reach a place of simple missing.How writing acts as a physical channel to move grief out of the body’s nervous system.Samantha’s surprising experiences with automatic writing and dream visitations as a way to continue the dialogue with her mother.Advice for parents on how to handle the “script” of tragedy with children by choosing honesty over ambiguity.WATCH ON YOUTUBE: https://youtu.be/InmA253eJGg?list=PL7judgDzhkAWmfyB5r5WgFD6ahombBvohIf this conversation speaks to your heart, we’d love to share something special with you. The first 5 people to follow Samantha on Instagram @samantharose_writer and send her a DM with the message “Grief and Rebirth” will receive a signed copy of Giving Up the Ghost: A Daughter’s Memoir. A small offering, with a lot of love behind it 🤍 OR 📖 Buy Giving Up the Ghost: A Daughter’s Memoir by Samantha Rose on Amazon or Bookshop.org to support this powerful story of grief, healing, and transformation. Bookshop: https://bookshop.org/a/93249/9781960573681Amazon: https://amzn.to/4t96DBH---✨ Grief & Rebirth: Healing Resources & Tools ✨🎧 Irene's Books (Including a Free Audiobook!)They Serve Bagels in Heaven—Irene’s heartfelt story of love and life beyond.Listen Free on Audible as a First Time User: https://amzn.to/4dG4l4wGet the Paperback or Hard copy: https://amzn.to/3XrE995📚 Embrace Life’s Third ChapterGood to the Last Drop—A powerful anthology on aging with purpose: https://amzn.to/3VJgEa5🛍️ Healing & Self-Care PicksCurated books and essentials from Irene: https://www.amazon.com/shop/irenesweinberg📚 Grief & Rebirth BookshopBooks by podcast guests for healing & wisdom: https://bookshop.org/shop/griefandrebirth🎙️ Podcast & CommunityInspiring stories of transformation on the Grief and Rebirth website: https://griefandrebirth.com📱 Stay ConnectedSubscribe to Grief and Rebirth on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCOSDru2EU1djRZaZxxFkMig?sub_confirmation=1Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/irenesweinbergFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/IreneSWeinbergTikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@irenesweinberg🎥 Irene’s Spiritual Awakening StoryWatch how the podcast began: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s0mJWKfg5PM🎙️ Be a Podcast GuestHave a story or healing work to share?Apply Here: https://ireneweinberg.com/be-on-the-podcast/📰 NewsletterGet updates, tips, and new episodes by signing up to the Grief and Rebirth Substack: https://substack.com/@griefandrebirth💖 Affiliate DisclaimerSome links may earn us a commission.